Over the past year or so, I’ve become acutely aware of the push and pull that surrounds writing publicly about personal things. Because, let’s face it – whether two or 10,000 read what I write – it’s out there nonetheless. How much sharing is too much? What happens when you don’t share enough? Certainly, some experiences are intensely private, and are simply not intended for public consumption, so they remain a mystery to the outside world. Other times, details of challenges come flowing out, and I hear that others have helped or encouraged by what I’ve shared.
It was with this balancing act in mind that I finally sat down to write my About page a few months ago. While I’m happy with how it turned out, I’m still considering – what is the “why” behind my writing? What is my voice? What do I, Heather Renshaw, have to offer that is not already done so brilliantly by so many others? I feel God calling me to go deeper, to get more personal, and yet I am also hesitant because, whenever we allow ourselves to be vulnerable, we open ourselves up for more potential criticism and rejection. And that can be painful. And as much as I try to fool myself into thinking that I simply don’t care what others think (I’m not listening … tra la la la!), that’s just a big, fat lie.
Here’s the thing, y’all – I want to be very honest, because, at my core, I am a truth-telling storyteller. I want to help people with my words. As a Mom, I tell my kids to be brave and strong and true – and I need to live that by my example. But sometimes the truth is difficult. And painful. And complicated.
Anyway. I will keep pondering these things – both in my head + heart – and perhaps they may end up on a blog post somewhere, too.
On a MUCH lighter note, the kind and generous Martina from Catholic Sistas asked some fellow writers to spill the beans about our blogs, and my responses are featured today! Head on over there to check out even more of what I had to say about this whole crazy blogging thing and some other fun stuff, too.
Love and peace,